tell me something i'vnt heard

i walked past my old home yesterday... now i dont quite remember what was i doin there...but then thats immeterial...immeterial like many other things happening with me these days...anywaz lets come back to the point...so i was walkin past my old home...or should i say house...home is supposed to be the place we live-in, ain't so...haan, so i was there and i bumped into a old friend of mine who used to play badminton with me...and naturally we talk a lot abt badminton and many other things...and he updated me on the lots of things goin on there...he told hw the best badminton player among us, a wipro hi-fi was nw jobless...and that, the little obese girl in the flat accross the society park was getting married next month...and so on...he went on for almost an hour... nw i hardly remembered at what position the wipro hi-fi wrked...or which girl he was talkin abt...but i listened...
listened like hell...i mst say...when we parted ways...with a not so bright reluctant 'see u soon' frm me...i wanted to scream...i wanted so say my friend i m nt what u think...i m diffirent...i dont care for things that dont relate to me....
and then it hit me...maybe i wasnt different...i being a non-sensitive, abnormal, unemotional hardball was no heroism...maybe i was a mental case... i was unwell...
i really wanted scream to then..and i called up my best freind... ' u know, i think i m losin my mind..' i said..and he replied, almost bored...'tell me something i ve not heard.'

to me or not to me : coming back

i dont know, what prompted me to write today...
to lean unto my key board to let out my feelings. Maybe its the turnmoil i ve had for past few days...or the repeated pleas of my dearest friends...or the sudden urge to to let it go...or maybe all of them. Anyways it means i m back...here...letter to letter...its been almost a year since my last entry...one thing i hope to change... i promise to be more regular.... more to the point as well... with these lines of self-absorbed monolouge i welcome myself back...in the bloggers world...once again...for aetreno...