Sunday, December 12, 2010

Life is not 3D..is it?: PART II

THANX EVERYONE...for not reading my last post... U missed nothing great....

but as i recall... i was on saying something real unpleasant to u last time..and i never miss an opportunity for saying unpleasant things so i m gonna continue saying (or more truthfully writing) it...

So, we were talking abt my resolutions... i mean my no-resolution resolution (by the way this sounds interesting).. and as u were dancing and enjoying and crying 'hallelujah' over that.. (which all is a just a fantasy in my mind..coz none of u actually read it), i ve asked u for caution... the caution abt not becoming over happy or too-hopeful... coz i m never gonna let u ppl rest in peace (when u alive..that is)...so here goes the real story...

Disclaimer : if you've ignored my plea for caution and been in a happy spirit these days॥ and the real story breaks Ur heart... the author, meaning i will not be held responsible..

so... as only one of my resolution of last year was carried out.. i ve decided to ... carry them out... cm on...the year aint over yet.. i can still can do it.. so help me God, Assange, Superman and u ppl... u may laugh or curse.. but i hope this shud be done.. this wud nt change me but at least better me (i cant get worse i am the SI unit of bad)...






Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Life is not 3D..is it?.. and by the way, i m back...

Its that time of the year again..
Cant blame me? its just the season.. the cold early december air is the culprit i guess... yes, its that time of the year again.. those of you who were stupid (...or emotionaly blind) enough to read my blog ever will remember it.. (though not too happily, i guess)... yes ur fear is true... its the time of resolutions and retrospections once again... ha ha ha.. and you thought i wud forgot that it was december, na...
anyways... as i m not sounding even remotely funny we shud get on wid the things on hand... now here is a good news for u... guess, guess... no i am not closing the blog, u idiots.. (the title says i m back for god's sake)... and no i m not taking a vow of self-containment... the news is...that, that... this year i am not gonna make any fresh resolutions... (i hear claping, applause, plenty of oh thank gods, many thank yous).. see that was a good or even gr8 news for you people... Caution, Caution.. dont be so happy...
Actually, as all (maybe except one) of last years resolutions of mine were not kept... so, i ve been thinking... (why are you so terrified, a guy is just thinking)... and i concluded that its better not do that again (it wud be like remaking RGV's AAG....Er, what did u say- Ramu is considering it, Gawd ).... so, there are no resolutions this year... (Hurray, la la la, GOD saved the kin)...but...

WILL BE BACK with..... Life is not 3D..is it?: PART II

Thursday, February 25, 2010

pawas neer and the bare cupboard...

ok this one is not about sachin...
yeah, i know he hit a 200, got the highest runs, made history, blah, blah, blah... there is nothing new in it, sachin was just doing his job... no, no, its not playing cricket, that one is for the lesser beings in the world of the game of bat, ball and 22 yard pitch...sachin's job is to play... no, no not cricket... i told u it was for the pontings, dhonis, smiths and sehwags... sachin plays a much higher one.. his job is to play GOD... and on the 25th of this month at gwaliar he did just that... he just did his job... (well, that too calls for much cheering and celebrations and hysteria, as very few in our esteemed country do their jobs well)... but thats that...
i m punching the key-board just to talk about me... (yes i m the most self-centred one on this planet..but then maybe its my job)... on the 18th or (maybe 19th) day of my self-exile i decided i needed to do something about myself... so i did some self assesment.... trust me, its fun... i added, substarcted, multiplied, divided and sachined (that is when u do something mathematically immpossible like hitting 200 in 50 overs) and sibbaled (this one u know) all the known and unknown factors in my life... and found an answer... siffer (0).... shunya...
now, dont shun it... '0' is the one of most important discoveries of all time (havnt u seen manoj bharat kumar's purab aur paschim)... but if its presiding as the sum of all ur achivements in life, its not pretty... so i re-checked, re-calculated, re-sachined, re-sibbaled and even tharoored (i mean twittered) some f my friends for help... but the result was the same.... 0.
i thought of all the shiny, hard-earned medals, sheilds and trophies in my cupboard back home... and then cancled them out.... yes my cupboard was empty... as bare as the wicket column of dale steyn in the last match...
i dont know... what shoud one do when... when all u have got in ur life is an empty slate...
one option was to deny everything (like the pakistani secy. did when asked about hafeez saeed)... or i cud have screamed foul play and gone and jumped from the burj khalifa (or maybe the civic center at minto road, its nearer)...
or maybe it was a chance to stats afresh... to write new things on the empty slate...(by the way why r we saying slate, it wud be better to say laptop nwdays)... to do something which does not get wiped out by the waves of life's ups and downs...
well, the last one sounded coolest.. so i ve decided to do something meaningful... to get that bloody siffer out of my book... i m on that path now... but the score is still the big 0... maybe i ve to something bloody big... is writing this blog counts?

P.S.- all my posts are folllowing one single theme nwdays, my miseries, my realizations and my inaction... mybe i m getting the MADHUR BHANDARKAR syndrome.. wat say u....

Monday, February 15, 2010

kis kaam ke yeh resolution....

do din ki chutti, valentine day ko aap offc na aao to girlfriend bane na bane, kam se kam reputation to ban hi jati hai...

Friday, February 12, 2010

the real test is now....

tomorrow is saturday... the real test begins now..

Thursday, February 11, 2010

मेरा नाम खान तो नहीं है...

जब मैं बारहवी में था तो जिस कालोनी में रहा करता था वहां खेल का एक बड़ा मैदान था... हम वहां क्रिकेट खेला करते थे... एक लड़का वहां खेलने आया करता था, किसी बड़े मिनिस्टर का बेटा था... एक दिन तीन बार वो जीरो पर आउट हुआ ... उसने अगले दिन कहा यहाँ अब फूटबाल खेला जाएगा... मना करने पर उसका कहना था ये खेलो या कुछ नहीं खेलने दूंगा .... मरते क्या न करते वहां फूटबाल खेला जाने लगा... कुछ हम जैसे थे जिन्होंने खेलना ही छोड़ दिया ....
बात बहुत पुरानी है लेकिन आज फिर याद aayi है... शायद उस लड़के का चेहरा मुझे आज फिर टीवी पर नज़र आया... nahin uska chehra nahin tha... kisi aur ka tha... kisi thackre ka... lekin khel bhi waisa hi tha... maidan bhi... aur zid bhi... iss baar bhi khelna chod du kya doston kya kehte ho... kya kiya jaye...

being alone..being personnal....

now it must be a new world record..I arrived at office on time...even the liftman was amazed...
ok, apologies for not writing lastnight... but things have not been going my way... so, today i decided to take a break... to do something different... i saw the Qutub again... i have seen it once already... but this time it looked different.. it was..arrr..it was more personnal i guess... i was me and the qutub.. no one else to share the experience... no one to show off my knowladge to... me and iltutmish, haaa... iltutmish or altamash... it was something else... i dont know why it made me smile.. maybe it was the silence...yes, definately it was the silence...
i ve not ridden an auto-rickshaw since the exile(!)... i ve ridden in buses and used metro.. i can even recognize now some of the faces in the metro... there is cute little group of girls...who speak in some language i dont recognize... and there is one guy with his left hand in a sling...
ok, ok i mst stop now... meanwhile i ve regained some control aftr the madness of last two days.. maybe (just maybe) i wud scrap through...
but one thing surely amazes me... i m enjoying my self-exile... i never thought this wud happen... maybe its because its just the beginning... maybe i will go beserk in some days... till then i m enjoying being alone, having my life more personnal...